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the chest pains and heart palpitations stopped today, except for the early a.m. i‘ve had this going on for a few days but it never much worried me on account of knowing why it was happening. i am not really heart attack material, for as much as i joke about predicting i will day one day by software-induced heart attack. that is mostly just a joke though times come when it feels so unbelievably aggravating to be a sucker in the software food chain. lately, though, the chest pains, which felt more like cramps, were poking away on account of excess supplement intake, specifically Lutein, which is something i take for the macular degeneration, but until recently i took 4-6 mg a day. last week i figured i‘d get my eyeballs into perfect shape by more than tripling it to 20mg. i mean why not, the pills were cheap as hell. i guess i should have looked it up somewhere for i, like a lot of ignoramuses, thought once again that supplements can do no real harm. i obviously forgot about the feeling of near heart attack that followed intake if some ICAPS supplements, and the weird feeling that my liver was turning inside out after taking some holistic hippie bogus bullshit for my sometimes spastic innards. both those pills were described as “supplements“ but the list of vitamins, minerals, and other mysterious substances contained therein read like a botanist‘s checklist of every fucking thing in the secret attic garden.
so, upshot, no more supplements for a while. i have to detox off of lutein and vitamin b12/thiamine overdoses. but with lutein, while it is always preferable to get these types things in regular food, lutein is one of those things that can‘t readily be gotten via any normal foodstuff. there are no lutein smoothies or lutein body creams nor is it found in sunlight or beach water. and lutein, with other antioxidants, is, according to my and other retinal specialists, the only known way to contain macular degeneration.
i take my glasses off too rarely. mostly just to sleep. i look over them as i type this and remember how the quality of color seen with the nekkid eye is more natural (beautiful, even) then color as seen through any corrective lenses i‘ve ever used. the color through glasses is just not natural. i have a “whoa!“ prescription, though. by that i mean that i‘ve had a few eye doctors look into my eyes and, when they see how strong my prescription is, they say “whoa!“ i can‘t remember what the prescription is but when the occasional bar game of trading glasses occurs i always win, making sick anyone who thought they had a strong prescription and the world‘s worst eyes by putting my glasses on their face and showing them O how i suffer and O how i WIN the contest.
today has been an utter waste. i feel so much better without the chest pains that i guess i felt i deserved a day off. wading through thousands of pictures in search of just one picture taken a decade ago i concluded that i need a gigormous monitor, 60“ or more, for which to see hundreds of images at once. a strange side-effect of having billions and trillions of images in my hard drive coffers, but a perfectly reasonable solution which happens to be 100% tax deductible. so, Bravia here I come, i guess.. or maybe an infinitely expandable 1080p projection monitor screen thingie. then i could watch “Play Time“, that Jacque Tati movie i got on BluRay before reading that one must see the film on a giant, giant, GIANT screen to “get“ it.
